New Year and 45 lbs

2011 has arrived. I am not quite sure I am ready for it but I have no choice.

So flashback to 2007. Kimberly Smith (me) weighed in at 280 lbs. Yes...280 lbs. I was very over weight and depressed about it. I didnt show it on the outside so everyone thought I was the happy go lucky funny girl but really on the inside I hated myself and my life. Things happend in my life that made me want to be a different person. I started eating healthy and was at the gym 5 days a week. I didnt "diet". If I said I was on a diet it just wouldn't work. So I did a lifestyle change of being active and eating healthier. In about a year I lost close to 100 lbs. I was much happier in my life. I was much happier with my husband because I felt sexier, prettier and overall better.

2008 was a good year. As husband and wife we traveled and just went through life happier because of the new me. The new me mad both me and hubby happier. Although he said he didn't care about my weight.

April 2009 I found out I was pregnant with my little miracle. I call her my little miracle because in the 13 years my husband and I were together I could never get pregnant. We went to a fertility doctor who said I was fine and shouldn't have any troubles. The common factor in all my doctor visits were you need to lose weight. Well, losing close to 100 lbs obviously helped because now we were expecting our little bundle of joy. Now all along before I found out I was pregnant I was at the gym 5 days a week. As soon as I found out I was pregnant I quit going to the gym. Why? I just had it in my head that something was going to happen to the baby if I kept working out, so I stopped. After all my baby was more important than going to the gym. So since April 2009, I have not been as active as I should be. I gained 60 lbs during my pregnance and I am sad to say I have 45 lbs still to lose.

Sooo... New Year and 45 lbs to lose. I started going back to the gym and I have been eating better. I love this machine at the gym. The stairmaster. Not the old step step step but more of the one that looks like an escalator that you just keep climbing. Before baby I could do 40 minutes on this machine and not have any problems. It was my favorite machine. The machine that I credit to getting my thighs and legs into shape. Well...sad to say, I did 8 minutes and it killed me. I was so out of breath. Thats what almost two years of no excercise has done to my endurance. So everyday I will be adding 2-4 minutes on this machine and get my endurance back. I used to also take Zumba and spinning classes. I don't dare go into these classes right now until I can get my endurance back. I would be so embarassed to have to leave class halfway through because I thought I would die if I kept going.

45 lbs...wow...thats quite a bit and to top it off. I would love to lose it by the end or March. That means 15 lbs a month. I just keep repeating the mantra. I can do it, I can do it, I can do it. I now have to do it for myself and also for my little miracle. I want her to be an active baby so she needs parents that can lead her.

I can do it, I can do it, I can do it.